Against Having mother's day

yes i am totally against having mother's day. it has nothing to do with my love to my mom who i adore ( hamdullilah she is still alive), but it has to do with the feeling of orphans.

When i think how many kids will be in depression and tears during this period, when they are surrounded everywhere with " I LOVE YOU MOM", it just kind of kill me. I am super sensitive on this issue.

the sadness of an orphan is as important as the happiness of my child.

After all, it is just a commercial occasion.
Also, dont you think that everyday should be a mother's day????

Not jealousy... only sadness on myself

I got to know yesterday 2 news, which kind of depressed me.
the first: my friend is pregnant. i am so happy for her, but i felt sad that i am not. and it is me who is killing herself to get the second baby and finish from this duty. i told my husband again, and inshallah, " yes of course we want asap". but a baby doesnt come alone!!!

the second was even more depressing, one of the girls i used to work with took my place in my previous job, although, and beleive me i am not lying, she is not qualified for this role. this really annoyed me. It is almost 10 months that i left my job to be with my baby and at home. my job that i liked, that made my name......

It is not jealousy, but it is sadness on my situation.

shall we say mabrouk??? women driving in saudi, irrespective of the terms

http://www.alarabiya.net/articles/2008/03/17/47091.html


قال مصدر في مجلس الشورى السعودي إنه تم رفع توصية للجهات العليا بالسماح بقيادة المرأة للسيارة وفقا لضوابط أقرها المجلس بعد
دراسة مستفيضة.وأضاف المصدر لـ"العربية نت" طالبا عدم ذكر اسمه، إن هذه الضوابط تنص على ألا يقل عمر المرأة عن 30 سنة وموافقة ولي أمرها على قيادتها للسيارة، والحصول على رخصة قيادة من مركز تعليم القيادة النسانية، وأن تكون السائقة محتشمه فى ملابسها ولا تضع أي مواد للزينة، وأن يسمح لها بالقيادة بمفردها داخل المدن، أما خارجها فتكون بمرافقة محرم.ونصت أيضا على تحديد أوقات القيادة من الساعة السابعة صباحا وحتى الثامنه ليلا من السبت حتى الأربعاء، وأما يوما الخميس والجمعة فمن الساعة الثانية عشرة بعد الظهر الى الساعة الثامنه مساء.

وتابع المصدر بأن من الضوابط أن تحمل المرأة معها جهاز الهاتف الجوال للاستعانة به عند تعرضها لحالات طارئة، والاتصال بمركز المرور النسائي فى أي حالة تعديات، ودفع مبالغ معينة عند اصدار الرخصة من هيئة المرور النسائي تخصص لتصليح الاعطال قد تتعرض لها سيارتها أثناء القيادة.وأوصى مجلس الشورى السعودى بتأسيس قسم مرور نسائي مختص يتلقى البلاغات، ورقم هاتف مجانى للاتصال به عند الطوارئ، ووضع مراكز داخل المدن للمرور النسائي باشراف جهات دينية.وطالبت دراسة مجلس الشورى معاقبة من يتحدث إلى سائقة من سيارات أخرى أو من العابرين بالسجن لشهر واحد ودفع مبلغ مالى، ومعاقبة من يثبت تحرشه بها بالسجن 8 أشهر وغرامة مالية، وتعاقب سائقة السيارة المخالفة للأنظمة بسحب الرخصة فقط.وأوضح مصدر فى الإدارة العامة للمرور لـ"العربية نت" أنه لم يصدر حتى الآن أى توجيه من قبل مجلس الشورى فيما يخص تشكيل مرور نسائي.

43 ألف امرأة
وكان عضو مجلس الشورى د.محمد آل زلفة قد تبنى فكرة السماح بقيادة المرأة للسيارة، وتم تحويل الموضوع للنقاش داخل المجلس، والذي انتهى بإصدار هذا النظام ورفعه لمجلس الوزراء السعودي لدراسته واصدار قرار بشأنه.وسبق ذلك قيام عدد من النساء برفع عريضة إلى خادم الحرمين الشريفين قبل عدة شهور تطالب برفع الحظر عن قيادة المرأة للسيارة.وقال د. مفلح القحطاني نائب رئيس الجمعية الوطنية لحقوق الانسان بالسعودية لـ"العربية.نت" "الجمعية الوطنية لحقوق الانسان فى السعودية عريضة موقعة من قبل 102 من المواطنات والمواطنين السعوديين تنص على الطلب نفسه". ووفق إحصائية حديثه حصلت عليها "العربية.نت" فإن 98 ألف سيارة في السعودية مسجلة باسماء 43 ألف سيدة سعودية، مشيرة إلى أن أول سيارة امتلكتها سيدة كانت في عام 1981 .وأظهرت الإحصائية أن نساء البادية فى الأراضى السعودية يمارسن قيادة السيارة بحكم الضرورة، وأكثر من 350 موظفة سعودية يقدن السيارات في امارة دبي.وكانت الجهات الأمنية فى المنطقة الشرقية من السعودية ألقت القبض على الناشطة السعودية وجيهة الحويدر أثناء قيادتها سيارتها فى ميدان عام، كما تم ضبط نساء أخريات يقدن سيارات في بعض المدن السعودية.

living with walls

sometimes, i wish i live with walls, alone with my daughter. at least the walls do not have commands , and i will know that i am not expecting any expressions.

what will happen if u help me in removing some of the food from the dining table, while i am giving my daughter a bath and put her to sleep. is it a shame?
how can i cope with all what i need to do and still be alive at the end of the day?

u didnt tell me that u have invited ur beloved brothers to dinner, and though, although i am dead from this jet lag and ur daughter's requirements all the day, i have prepared stuff quickly, then ran to gave her the bath and feed her. i was dizzy for not sleeping well, and i slipped in the bath. when i called u, u asked if anything happened to her. i told u it is me who slipped, u started laughing!!! and finally, when everything is over and time to remove the stuff from the dining table, i found you sleeping. without telling me good night.

WHats wrong? everything was ok during the day.

isnt it fair to wish living with the walls?

29 years

last week, it was my birthday and it is my last year in the 20's. I didnt have any cake, or any celebration. we are on vacation, the vacation is celebration.. that's what my husband told me. but i had a weird feeling. I am growing up, my responsibilities are growing... It is a new phase in my life, actually it started when i had my baby... a total life makeover...

Happy birthday to me.
I will promise myself that i will do something for me, most probably arts related. I should start

why do westerns say hi to each other, we dont

I am writing now from the USA. I came few days ago to celebrate the graduation and marriage of my brother in law.
I was walking early morning , trying to enjoy the good weather and noticed that everyone, young and old people, females and males.... say hi to each other, even if they dont know the other person.
It s great. i like it. and started thinking why we dont do the same... Our culture is more family and society oriented than their culture. Our religion asks us to do so... why i dont know who is my neighbour? why if i say good morning when i am in the lift, no one replies to me?

small gesture, but it means a lot...
worth give it a thought.

a typical day in my life

This is a typical day in my life. Believe me, i am not exaggerating:
waking up at 7 with my daughter.
time to feed, change her diaper and clothing. all this, when she wants to play and she fights with me.
8:00 take her to nursery. drive 20 min to arrive, then come back.
the plan is to go directly to the sport class, but never on time, so skip it.
come back home, prepare his sandwish, and then he wakes up , and goes.
I go to my meetings and work ( I am working on my own projects when she is in nursery).
run, run , run to finish before she comes back. 1:30 pick her and come home.
Home is a mess: need to clean, make it proper ( proper with her is not a correct word).
she's getting bored: time to take her out to play area,
OH, it is 5 already. i need to cook, and try my best to make home a bit acceptable before he comes back.
6:30- 7 : he's back: serve the dinner for him and her. Oh I just realized that i didnt have a proper lunch. time to eat. prepare her shower , play with her in water, change her clothing ( another fight), and time to sleep at 8.
Waw. she slept, but i need to remove the mess again, ironing, serving tea and fruits ....
it is already 12. midnight, i am exhausted. let me sleep.

breastfeeding

I am finding it hard to stop breastfeeding . she is now 1year and half and still breastfeeding her. No Formula at all. I am happy with it. it gives me personal satisfaction , I am trying to give her the best. and I am still productive
but the idea that one day i have to stop and she will no more be dependant on my body is still far to be accepted to me.

after sunset, i wanted to walk in this nice spot of dubai, where lots of kids play and plenty of well organized artificial greenery.
After playing with my daughter on the grass, i lie down and started contemplating the stars and moon, although it was still not fully dark.
Waw. I miss this feeling. I have been transferred in seconds to another life, more innocent, more free time, more natural, more "village" style. Sub7han Allah for its creatures.

It was so relaxing. I forget the problems of the day.
I want to promise myself to repeat it . for myself. 5 min every few days and all start blank :)

You are her dad, so please share responsibilities

So what will happen if you take her to the nursery every morning? or let's say once a week?
it is on your way to the office, and you can take her a bit late, so it will match exactly your timing.
You know that she will not cry, she will enjoy it...
Why I have to take her everyday and then come back home?
Is it a shame to do that?

and No, you are not the only one who does so. If you go there, you will notice that a lot of dads drop their children.

Give me just one valid excuse.

WHat a mom will say during a day, in less than 3 min

It is so funny, and so true.
I am experiencing only very few, since she is still a toddler.
Must see clip

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oK7WskpqNc

intimate relation

I am sure it is not normal. he is not approaching me at all. it has been more than 7-8 months when we last slept together. and at that time, it was after many months as well. i know that my body is not anymore the same, as i havent lost few more kilos left. but still, can this be normal.?
i tried to understand many times the reason for this, and i sometimes initiated the action myself, but there is always a rejection from his side.
i am sure he is not dating another woman.. he cannot be. he spends his time at office and home... but why is this>?
it has never been a priority for e at any point, but i still would like to feel that he desires me, i want to feel the woman inside me... i lost it

She is driving me crazy

She is driving me crazy, but she is also amazing. you have been travelling for 2 weeks now and she has been with me all the time, except when she goes these 3 days part time to the nursery. She wants the TV on, she doesnt want to eat the food, except chocolate, she doesnt want to stay in one place, she doesnt want to change her diapers, she wants to throw water on the floor....
Ok, it is" her age" and she needs to explore, but i cant make it ... i cant keep the home tidy and proper at all.....
and after all, you come and start saying that the home is not proper and that you thought that i am a better housewife.
I am sorry, would you like to try staying with her half a day only and tell me your reaction after that?

Identity crisis!!!

I am reading about the war that women live in once they get babies and still dream of an excellent career. which is my case. and i found out, which is true, that we live identity crisis: our nature and mind tells us to care about our jewels, but the pressure of the society and the competition is asking us to be active. this is resulting in identity crisis.
have you faced the same?

Wake Up Arabs

What else do you want to happen so that you wake up and realize the tragedy you are living in? you didnt hear Bush saying yesterday that no return to Palestinian refugees to their stolen lands? what did you do since then? did you talk about it? did you move and banned his visit to your countries? did you shout loudly that this is unfair?

all what i can see is that you are in very deep sleep, not aware of anything.
let me clarify that i am not talking about the " leaders", because these have sold their lands and souls and people to Israel and America and whomever is against the justice.
I am talking about you, the arab people.

Move, move, move.... isnt it time for the revolution???

professional at home; some respect pls

What do you do? I am staying at home, full time mom. I can see the same reaction in every one's eyes. mmm lucky you. you should be having plenty of time. and that's it. conversation ends in general at this point, or if lucky, few more questions about the baby and they will get back to dubai's everyday discussions: business.
excuse me: a full time mom is not what you think. we are doing the most difficult job in the world, 24/7, no mercy, no rest. even if the baby goes to sleep, we will have to clean the mess she created and get a quick bite before she wakes up. My home is a mess, i don't have time. I have grew 10 years older in the past one year. it is so hectic. it is not what you think. yes it is rewarding from our angels, our sons and daughters.
but can we have some respect from you as well?

We have been working, and we know what to do other than changing diapers and feeding babies, but we have chosen to be next to our babies, because they need us now.

New year resolution

Happy new year. i cant believe how time is flying.
one of my resolutions for this year is to write, about everything. i deleted all the previous blogs i had, because they were on and off. but now, this one will be ongoing. I will write because i want to find myself. I am totally lost and i have many ideas of what to do, how to define myself and many more. this blog will be my history. i want to look at myself in the future and see how i used to think, and how am i evolving, what changed in me.

Being very ambitious and clever, then faced the fact of the amazing motherhood, but the impossibility of balancing work and family, if you are an employee. I managed to do that for some time, but when my daughter grew to a toddler, it became impossible. every moment in her life is precious. so i gained her by being next to her, but i lost myself and my husband....