Not jealousy... only sadness on myself

I got to know yesterday 2 news, which kind of depressed me.
the first: my friend is pregnant. i am so happy for her, but i felt sad that i am not. and it is me who is killing herself to get the second baby and finish from this duty. i told my husband again, and inshallah, " yes of course we want asap". but a baby doesnt come alone!!!

the second was even more depressing, one of the girls i used to work with took my place in my previous job, although, and beleive me i am not lying, she is not qualified for this role. this really annoyed me. It is almost 10 months that i left my job to be with my baby and at home. my job that i liked, that made my name......

It is not jealousy, but it is sadness on my situation.