Sunday, April 19, 2009

adultery, or only a dream?

I dreamt of him last night, We were dancing together, and he was looking at me in his romantic look, and he kissed me.
This is may be the 3rd time I dream of him. I really love him. I can't stop watching his series on youtube, on all the blogs, looking at his news, his pictures, his video clips.
I never imagined myself to be obsessed with a actor.

My dream of last night shocked me. I love my husband, and I never imagine myself with anyone else.
"I committed adultery with my brain", that’s what an ex president of the USA said once. So did I commit adultery with this dream?
Frankly, i have mixed feeling : i am so annoyed that my uncounscious is thinking extreme of him, but i am happy of this dream .
It has been a while that I didn’t write. Mylife the past few months:My husband is back to his old "him", so more caring, more helpful, but never more romantic. May be I have to believe that the marriage life really kills all romantism, and having babies and their daily stress will totally destroy it?
My work is ok, but I am not learning anything new.
Being a non Saudi female, working in Saudi, has a lot of limitations in career growth. But I am still happy to be working.
The economic crisis has seriously affected us. So we lost all what we have been collecting , and now we start from scratch.
In Saudi, you feel that all the people are always sad and tensed. You don’t find people smiling , or active. It is as if " I am living my moment ". this is very depressing for someone who used to live a "normal" life, where people are normal and smiling, crying, shouting, .... full of life, all aspects of life.