Thursday, March 20, 2008

Not jealousy... only sadness on myself

I got to know yesterday 2 news, which kind of depressed me.
the first: my friend is pregnant. i am so happy for her, but i felt sad that i am not. and it is me who is killing herself to get the second baby and finish from this duty. i told my husband again, and inshallah, " yes of course we want asap". but a baby doesnt come alone!!!

the second was even more depressing, one of the girls i used to work with took my place in my previous job, although, and beleive me i am not lying, she is not qualified for this role. this really annoyed me. It is almost 10 months that i left my job to be with my baby and at home. my job that i liked, that made my name......

It is not jealousy, but it is sadness on my situation.

4 comments:

Fa6ma said...

You've been away for 10 months, it's almost a year. Don't be sad =) that was your ex-job and when you go back to work you'll have a new job,, maybe you'll have to build yourself from scratch but that's what we women usually do.
Bss why 10 months!? Too much!

Life of Arab Woman said...

because my daughter is 1.5years, i dont have anyone to sit with her. I am against having maids. i have tried 2 and was not happy,. My family is away. she goes to nursery only till 1 p.m. all jobs are till 5 or 6.

Fa6ma said...

Ah God help you! Totally understandable. They always, always talk about making a nursery for employee children but they never ever do it! Wouldn't that be like, heaven!? =)

American Muslima Writer said...

I hope soon you'll have your second but don't be sad about the job, if you got preg again would you want to start a new job and then have to put it on hold agian while you deliver and feed your child? It is a hard thing to deal with working with kids because all schools only go to 2 max.